The Grass Is Greener On The Other Side

Have you ever wondered and thought about the saying, "the grass is greener on the other side." People desire what other people have on the outside but no one knows what they are feeling within the inside. Let's think of a made up scenario: A woman who is a successful attorney meets up with a childhood friend. We will name this woman, Leanne. Her friend, Katie also went to law school got married instead and has three children. Leanne never got married and dedicates her life to her profession. However, she secretly desires a life where she is married and happy with three kids of her own. Instead, she fills that void with three cats. Katie is catching up with her friend while Leanne gets interrupted from her job and has to take the call. During this time, Katie's stomach is filling up with a disgusting, green liquid that we know as envy. When Katie and Leanne finish their lunch, Katie's husband picks her up and all three kids are in the back seat. Leanne is left in the parking lot, waving goodbye to her friend. She sees her friend smile at her husband and kids as she gets into the car. Leanne is left standing there. Her vision is getting blurred by the tears that that are blocking her eyes. Everyone has a dream, a vision, a hope for happiness. What one person has, no one should desire it fully because you really don't know what that person thinks and feels about their life on the inside. It may be interesting to be that fly on the wall so we know how happy one is. However, we can't be flies and have to try our best to make our own happiness. One quote I find to be morbid, but very true, "Jealousy is a mental cancer." However, unfortunately, it has been around since the beginning of man and will probably be there to the end. People have the ability to be brave and face the green eyed monster. Then laugh at it, and sabotage the monster's malicious desires at destroying mankind.

A Dark Abyss

Entering a dark abyss into no where. Not sure where you are going but you can't stop the ride. Don't know what is in store for you next. The ride of life twists and turns. Jolting your body as it violently shakes. Will the ride stop and lead you into placid waters? Scared and frightened and filled with anger. Entering a dark abyss into no where.

How one sound can affect someone.

How can one particular sound affect someone? As I listen to the world, I hear the sound of crackling fireworks. How does one perceive that sound? I, personally look forward and excited to it knowing the Fourth of July is here. My summer has just begun. It is the beginning of my favorite season. Hope and bliss is filling the land with peace and Mother Nature's harmony. However, the sounds of the fireworks can instill negative feelings in someone else. One can mistaken fireworks for gun shots which can be quite scary. One can associate the fireworks or the Fourth of July with a negative memory. My dog despises the sounds of fireworks. She hides under a chair and shakes as she is petrified. It is funny to me how one sound can affect people or even an animal differently. This is something I wanted to share with you all. Happy Fourth of July!

Have you ever had to deal with so much at once that you feel that your head is going to explode? I guess you could say that I am going through that right now. In terms of my book, I have been promised that it would soon go to market. However, that promise has been pushed off to another day, week, or perhaps a month. I will be thrilled for the one day in the future that I could announce to you all that it is officially done. Until then, thanks for checking in.

I Hate Being Sick!

Unfortunately, I have been quite ill this week. I had to take off from work the entire week. Every day, another ailment occurs. A few days ago, it was my nose where I was constantly sneezing while running temperature. The day after that I started to have a dry hacking cough. At night I have difficulty breathing. I literally live next to my humidifier. I don't know why I am writing or sharing this with you all. However, I just hope this virus leaves my system forever. Sometimes, I use my blog as a journal in hopes that positive, good people read it and will maybe send me positive energy my way. Energy, that is something I could use about now. Thanks for reading and being part of my venting session.

When One Door Closes, Another one Opens

When one door closes, another one opens. I don't know how many of you witnessed that in your own lives. I have definitely seen the mysterious hands from above open my doors when all my doors were slammed shut. If you've been reading my blog, then you know that my husband and I were victims of Hurricane Sandy. We lost our first floor of our home and both cars were gone. However, something great came out of Sandy which I am not going to disclose at this time. At one point in my life, I was engaged. The man I was engaged to was verbally abusive. I stayed with him for ignorant reasons: security (the feeling that you are in a relationship and not alone). I also adored his home as silly as that sounds. He lived by the water and I love the water. However, tragedy set in and I was forced to leave him. I am thankful that I did. If I had not left him, I am not quite sure if I would be here writing today. It turned out that he was not quite well. It was hard for me to see that. Love can sometimes lead you into a warped reality where you are blinded by your desires, needs, and wants. I thought that was it and I would never be with anyone. My friends were very good to me at the time. However, I had to be strong on my own. I met my husband six months later. When a door closes, life may seem unbearable, upsetting, and repulsive. However, we don't realize that when these doors close, it may be in our best interest. When your door shuts tight, try to release it by living your dreams. Live your life! Then when you least expect it, be prepared and your door may open. When you walk through this mystical door, you may find yourself in a glorious garden or by a beautiful placid lake. I don't know where you'll be because it is your life and your dream.

Update

Hi just wanted to update everyone. We hired a contractor and they put the walls up and will work on painting next. Then, I have to do a new kitchen considering, I have no oven, refrigerator, and my tiles are cracked. Also, all my countertops were removed along with my cabinets. I have one awful naked kitchen. I also need a floor. I have a lot of work ahead of me. I am hoping my book, "IGNITION, A TEACHER'S JOURNEY"will be ready in a month. However, I am not sure, but hope for the best. Thanks for reading this update :0). One thing I can say through this awful experience is to stay strong and hang tough because if you don't, no one else will do it for you.